Today was a really bad day. Starting with the oncology video we watched in NC1 was really depressing. I have a lot more of the cancer precursors and stuff than I realized. I will probably end up having some kind of cancer before I die. Then the quiz in Pharmacology. Yes, I'm grateful that she was "nice" enough to let us know ahead of time but I didn't find out till this morning and had an hour to study at lunch. Melinda and I went over the questions at the beginning of each of the 5 powerpoints she posted and luckily one of the questions was directly from it.
I got really mad that she didn't put the trade name on the quiz like she originally said she would. I would've gotten the insulin correct if it said Humalog. That made me mad.
Today I really questioned whether I was cut out for this. I rocked my clinicals this weekend passing meds and everything but this reading and stuff is killing me. Sometimes I feel like I can't breathe.
I came home and cried for like an hour. I realize 4/6 on a quiz isn't that bad...it's a 66 but it's better than the 0 I probably would've gotten had we had NO notice. It still sucks though. I feel like I'm going to fail this class because she teaches us NOTHING and we're expected to know EVERYTHING. I'm not going to study for it till she gives us the study guide and then I'm going to make flash cards for all the drugs we need to know on Thursday and Friday and have them with me to study during lunch break at clinicals.
Charlie was sweet and came out to see me because I was so upset. He boosted me up when I really needed it. As much as I don't deserve it sometimes he is really good to me. He told me I wasn't going to quit. He knows I can do this and he's not going to let me quit. He said that I was smart enough to learn 60% of the material in an hour and I should be proud of that. I never looked at it that way. He also said that the teacher is trying to test us to see how people handle stress and who is doing the work.
I know I'm not doing the work I need to be doing for that class. I'm trying to do all the med-surg reading and understanding that and it's consuming all my time. I still dont feel like I have all that grasped and we have a test in two days.
I just hate all this work. Fundamentals spoiled me because I didn't have to do nearly as much work then as I do now. It's frustrating because I know that we have to know something about drugs and all that but bottom line is everything is available to us on the computer or in our book when we're at hospital to look up things when we need to. I don't see how knowing that something blocks the HMG-CoA enzyme or whatever is going to mean anything to me. Might as well be written in swahili. I don't understand it and all this technichal mumbo jumbo is over my head. All the teacher does is read the 100+ slides to us....she doesn't explain anything. It's frustrating!
UGH! Well, enough whining. Gotta pull up my big girl panties and suck it up and just do what I have to do to get through it.
yeah, i get freaked out when there is that much information and start to feel lke it is impossible! I havnt studied much beyone reading some of the chapters. i wish i had more time this weekend to study! at least Mrs. Hodge sent the study guide information. I hope it is actually telling of what will really be on the test!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteGood luck!